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[Diana Beas]
I thought a stupid thought today.
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The kind that curls into the center of your chest, pokes its nose around between your ribs and then digs its way out. Until you have to yell at it to leave.
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They stick out like sudsy bubbles in the foam. And no matter how hard I try, I can't pop them or even get close enough to reach them.
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The stupid thoughts sometimes cease to exist for a while. And I become laughter and sunshine in that while.
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I begin to forget what thinking a stupid thought feels like. That it was somehow a figment of my imagination.
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And it's just me on days when I'm blessed with the simple joy of living in the moment.
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But on days like today, those thoughts creep out. They climb their way from nowhere to somewhere safe and good.
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Where people know they are not stupid. And they don't care if someone thinks they are.
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In fact, that stupid thought loves itself so much that it runs through my mind all day and before it knows it.
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It has lost all dignity and lost all resemblance to who it really is and what it wants to be.
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It becomes whatever the next stupid thought wants it to be.
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But the good thing about stupid thoughts is that they just can't run wild and let loose.
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It's also that they help lift us up.
The act of walking by thinking too loud and silly is a balancing act.
One where we walk tall. Smile big and sing louder than the current train of logic that our head allows.
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So I'll let the stupid thought be for today.
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Because, I'd rather have many stupid thoughts every day, than one beautiful thought all week.
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Diana Beas Soto is a Mexican-American 3rd year marketing major, writer, and first-gen college student. Beas was born and raised in Escondido, California. When she isn't busy working toward fulfilling her marketing dreams, Beas enjoys spending time with friends and family and jamming to her favorite music. Coming from an immigrant family, she particularly enjoys writing and learning more about her Latinx community and using that to find a sense of unity within herself as an individual and as a woman. Beas looks forward to being able to write from her generation's unique perspective and bring awareness to both the real-life impact of the Latinx experience and the challenges immigrants encounter living in America.